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Last week I was asked to present at the Renfrew Conference in Philly with my Partners in Advocacy this November 2010.  They asked me if I would sing a song I wrote in 2005 for a presentation we did for IAEDP.  One of my Partners in Advocacy uses a recording of this song to start out all of her presentations but I haven't sung this song in years.  So I thought I would pull it out tonight to see if I remember how it goes.

I finished my MM in Music Technology!!  I am very blessed because not only did I graduate from college I graduated from my journey to self-worth.  After 8 years of therapy and training myself to love myself I am ready to try it on my own.  I have to say so far so good... but that doesn't mean I am done learning about myself or done with my journey of finding myself.  There are so many different layers to each of us and I believe each layer needs to be found to become your true self.  So my next stop on this journey is finding my creative self.  I couldn't be in a better place for this.  I decided to stay here in the Hudson Valley working at the Deep Listening Institute because this allows me the time and the environment to find this creative self.  

In the past month I have met some amazing people.  And I have met these people because of the encouragement I get from the people I work with here at Deep Listening.  I am very fortunate to find the perfect place for this adventure as I was lucky to find the perfect place for my adventure of finding my self-worth.  i believe it is written in the stars for me to find my true self because each time I am ready the world is ready to receive and guide me to that perfect place.

It is interesting how these different journeys cross and you find a deeper part of the journey before.  I found my voice after many years of silence during my journey to self-worth but now I am working on finding my voice in creativity.  Singing has come and gone with me.  It is something that is very fragile and personal and out of fear I would put it away for years or create a voice that is not my own.  Now I am seeking this powerful voice I have felt inside.  It is amazing how something like this can feel like it is erupting from within and that is how it has felt for the past few years.  I felt I was not true to my voice, that there is something inside me that needs to be let loose.  I am working with a vocal teacher and meeting some AMAZING vocalist to help me on this path.  I can feel this eruption starting to calm as I start to allow this voice to be heard.  I am so excited about the possibilities of this step and how it can lead to other parts of my creative self.  

For my first performance of this new journey I will be playing at the Deep Listening Space with Lisa B. Kelley on Saturday 6/26/10 at 8pm.  Lisa is an amazing vocalist and this will be something you won't want to miss!!

If you are in the Kingston NY area the address is 77 Cornell St Suite 303 Admission is $10/$8.

If you are not in the Kingston area you can watch a live stream on ustream on the Deep Listening Institute channel.

http://www.ustream.tv/channel/deep-listening-institute-presents

Stay tunes for updates on this new journey!

Thank you for all your support!!

Jackie

I made it to my new destination.  It was quite the long drive but I enjoyed it.  I went to visit my parent in Nashville for a day and then headed the rest of the way to Kingston NY.  I was pretty impressed that Hunka Hunka Junka (my car) only had one big issue.  I was about 180 miles outside of Kingston and I blew a fuse and lost my tail lights.  It was late at night so I had to pull over and stay in a hotel til daylight hours.  This of course made the next day really long.  I got to my new place unpacked the babies and my Harley and then rushed into town to get my lights fixed and then started my internship.  I am really excited about this new adventure.  The town is nice and the scenery is great.  The internship will be quite fun and I hope to make a difference.  Everyone is so polite and it puts my mind at ease.  I have only been here for 26 hours but it feels like home.  I can't wait to see what the next 4 months bring.

Happy New Year!

It is just amazing what a new year can bring not to mention a new decade.  I am so grateful for the last decade.  It was a decade of change. 

2000 I was deep in the midst of my eating disorder (ED) knowing that my time would come for me to be in a hospital.  I went inpatient at the Renfrew Center that June.  

2001 I thought my ED was going to have the best of me.  I honestly thought I would die from ED.  I moved to Florida to seek the treatment I needed, not too sure if it would work but I had nothing to loose.  

2005 I started back to school to finish up my bachelors in Music.  ED was fading away and I was finally coming to the forefront.  

2007 my first CD came out and I got a Harley.  (One of the most daring years)  

2008 I graduated and started my master in Music and ED was not in my life anymore.  

Now the start of 2010 I am leaving my safety net here in Florida and moving to try something new.  It is only fitting that my life without ED starts a new decade.  A new decade of living life for me and enjoying the person I have become.  A new decade of seeing myself in the mirror instead of that nasty ED.  What excitement, anxiety, joy, sadness and so many other feelings that come with this new year.  All these feeling are strange and new but so wonderful because I know of the amazing adventures in my future.

A new decade is a great time for change, to do things differently, to leave ED behind.

Good Luck!  Stay Safe!

Join the wave of self-love!  You are Worthy!

Thanks for all your support!

Jackie

I am moving in 2 weeks from today for an internship to finish up my masters in music. I can't express how amazing this is and how scary this is all at the same time. << MORE >>

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